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Rang de Basanthi...

A good, worth watching movie after a long time. A justified script, talented direction and a dedicated performance by the actors. The presentation was quite different from other patriotic movies. A good blending of the two stories, one set in the pre independence era and the other in the present day. Most of the patriotic movies tend to dramatise the patriotic feelings to a point where the audience start to not so relate to the story. The story of Bhagat Singh and others which has been told on the silver screen many times before has been retold but wrapping it in the present day backdrop, which I felt was a different way of presenting the script. Don't forget to watch out for the exceptional camera work. The actors have out done their talents and I guess the full credit should go to the director Rakeysh Omprakash Mehra. Aamir Khan as usual gives a flawless performance, even though his age flaws his collage going character in the movie. This flaw has been to some extent covered up...

Gaining sympathy...

Ever wondered why some people don't get effected or get hurt when you try to say something offending to them. They basically are insensitive people who are not bothered by what others have to say about them or are least bothered about what others think about them. They are not even bothered or not even sorry about what has happened, they just use those instances to get sympathy and attention from others and nothing more. Don't even try to believe such persons or show any sympathy towards them. Once you give them attention or show sympathy, they just move on. They move on to find others to whom they can tell their story and get sympathy. They forget that they can not live on sympathy. But the irony is that this world is full of fools who fall prey to such people's tricks and end up getting fooled and used.

Shayari...

Humne socha tha ki shayad, hum hi chahte hai tumko, par tumhe chahne wala to kafila nikla, Dil ne kaha shikayat kar khuda se, paar khuda bhi tera chahne wala nikla. Ae dil unki yaad mein rona fizul hai ansu anmol hai, inko khona fizul hai Rote uske liye hain jo tum pe nisar ho uske liye kya rona jiske ashiq hazaar hon Ishq ke bhi kuch andaz hote nahi, Jagti ankhon mein bhi khawab hote hai, Zaroori nahi k gam mein ansu nikle, Muskurati ankhon mein bhi sailab hote hain. Yeh such hai doston kisi se pyaar na karna, Kabhi kisi ka aitbaar na karna, Tham ke khanjar apne hi hathon mein, Bedardi se apne dil par vaar na karna. Jisne humko chaha, use hum chah na sake, Jisko chaha usae hum pa na sake, Yeh samajh lo dil tutne ka khel hai, Kisi ka toda aur apna bacha na sake.

khwahishen bhi aksar....

khwahishen bhi aksar ... saanj mein ghum ho jaati hain jo pehlu mein chand hota ... aur aks mein chandni har shab-o-shama hum bhi ... deedar kiye hote par khwahishon ka kya ... khwahishen to aksar ... saanj mein ghum ho jaati hain yun zindagi ki dor ke ... na is chhorr hum ... na us chhorr hum har chhorr chhutaa jaata hai ... kis ore jaaye hum har khwahish pe pehra kyon ... khwahishen to aksar ... saanj mein ghum ho jaati hain

Ghazal time...

For fans of urdu poetry, like myself ... here's a beautiful one by Ahmed faraz!! ranjish hi sahi .. dil hi dukhane ke liye aa aa phir se mujhe .. chhod ke jaane ke liye aa pahale se maraasim na sahii .. phir bhi kabhi tou rasm-o-rahe duniya hi .. nibhane ke liye aa kis kis ko batayenge .. judaai ka sabab hum tu mujhse khafaa hai tou .. zamaane ke liye aa kuch tou mere pindaar-e-mohabbat ka bharam rakh tu bhi to kabhi .. mujh ko manaane ke liye aa ek umr se hoon .. lazzat-e-giriyaa se bhi maharuum aye raahat-e-jaan .. mujh ko rulaane ke liye aa... maana ki mohabbat ka .. chhupaana hai mohabbat chupke se kisii roz .. jataane ke liye aa jaise tujhe aate hain .. na aane ke bahaane aise hii kisii roz .. na jaane ke liye aa ab tak dil-e-khushfeham ko .. tujh se hain ummeden ye aakharii shammen bhi .. bujhaane ke liye aa

What have I become...

Yeh meine kya kar diya... But Its too late... When I look back I can't even imagine I have done all that. Irrespective of what others have done is correct or not, I should have behaved more responsibly. But at that instance I was so angry, I could not think. May be it was necessary to get everything out of my mind. Now I atleast know that there is no uncertainties. But this will remain my most embarrassing moment of my life and that one thing I would like to change given a chance.

I have gone insane...

I have totally gone insane...I don't know what I am doing...I don't know why I am doing...Never did such nasty things before...Even though I know I am not thinking before what I am doing...I am not able to help it. I had told before...don't press so much that you will have to repent later...There is a limit for everything...I can not withstand anymore...If I don't end it now...I will never be able to come out of it...I am being so selfish...But I don't find any way out other than making sure there is no way things can be better between us...I am very optimistic...Always thought there is a possibility to everything going back to normal...But its too late...If I need to end my optimism...I need to do this...Hope GOD will forgive me for what I am doing...

Patience...

Not able to decide if I should let them go and ignore them, or just simply give them back and not let them to get away for what they have done. Letting them go away will leave me frustrated and with a feeling that I have accepted defeat and make me feel like a weak person. Giving them back would make me similar to what they are, for I strongly believe I have not done anything wrong till now.

Don't do what you did with me to others, again...

You have not pinged me...SMSed me...from past 2 months...it only proves that you just wanted to cut off...and nothing else...and dont think that i am still waiting for you...feeling deceived...Humiliated...Insulted... Don't get so close to anyone and make them get used to you, if you are going to leave them after some time after humiliating them for no reason . Or if you cant help it at least tell them why you are leaving them...Statements like "mein aise he hoon.."... "somehow I don't feel like..." are not sane reasons... if you say I don't want to give an explanation then let me tell you, after disturbing someone's life you are obliged to tell them why...

I am humiliated...

I am humiliated...I am humiliated...is this the way to treat someone who was so close? I understand our relationship has detoriated to a point of no return. But I dint knew we had lost trust and respect for each other. Why the hell I do keep ignoring your humiliations and insults...and why is that you don't leave any chance of humiliating me? You have forced me to change my opinion for you...don't be so materialistic... I don't know why I am being so nice to you...just pray I don't loose my patience...

Illusionary...

The whole universe looks so illusionary. At one instance it looks as if the whole world is squeezed out and there are no openings, the next moment everything looks just fine, as if nothing is wrong anywhere. Its just a matter of extend your hand and grabbing what looks so distant or out of reach. At times feels as if everything has come to an end, at other times feels as if a small initiative or try can set right everything. Sometimes everything seems so wrong, at times feels like its just acceptable. That's illusion...

what to say...

I know you want to just enjoy and don't care a dam about others. You get close to others when you want and when you don't feel like you just throw them away as if you never knew them. You just want to be happy, but at what cost? Ruining others peace of mind? uuufff... Hanging on calls of someone, not responding is very much humiliating and insulting... Mark my words, one day you will be left with urself and no one around...

dono...

When I started knowing about you, you had generated a lot of sympathy for you in me. I had decided I will never hurt you and will never make you feel alone. I was happy that I was successful to some extent when I was there. When I left, I had this feeling of leaving you all alone. So I used to make sure I was in constant touch with you all the time even when I was here. But never realized I am not the only one in your life. I always wanted to make sure you were not alone, which I realized now that you took it as me suspecting you. But as and when you started drifting away I felt ignored and felt I do so much for you and you don't even acknowledge my efforts...

Mere bheegi bheegi se...

Mere bheegi bheegi se palko pe rahe gaye jaise mere sapne bhikar ke... Jaale maan tare bhi kise ke milan ko anamaka tu bhi tarase... Mere bheegi bheegi se...2 Thuje bin jane...bin pachane...meine rudaai se lagaya...2 Par mere payar ke badale le mein tu ne mujko yeh din dikhliya... Jaise bhira ke ruth meine kaate tadap ke aahe bhar bhar ke Jaale maan tare bhi kise ke milan ko anamaka tu bhi tarase... Mere bheegi bheegi se... Aag se nata...nari se rishta...kahe maan samaj na paya...2 Muje kya hua tha aak bewafa pe hai muje kyu pyar aaya... Tere bewafi pe hase jag sara...gali gali guzare zidar se... Jaale maan tare bhi kise ke milan ko anamaka tu bhi tarase... Mere bheegi bheegi se... Mere bheegi bheegi se palko pe rahe gaye jaise mere sapne bhikar ke... Jaale maan tare bhi kise ke milan ko anamaka tu bhi tarase... Mere bheegi bheegi se...

Replaced...

The feeling when you get replaced by someone else is an unavoidable and helpless feeling. Getting replaced is like loosing your identity to someone else...like someone else has taken you name and place in the society. You could be replaced anywhere, but anyone around you just accept the change and they don't feel the difference. They might not even realized something has changed. But you feel the difference because you were so much attached to the thing or place from which you were replaced. You could be replaced at your very home. The kind of attention you used to get from other family members may change over time or change at the addition of some new family member. You could be the youngest at the family and you get all the attention and love, when there is a new sibling or when there is a new generation member getting added to the family, you feel isolated and let out. It could also happen if you are a decision making person in the family and every one consults you before taking...

I Know...

I know the inevitable is happening, yet I am helpless... I know you are drifting away from me, but I cant reach you... I know its my last chance, yet I can not stop you... I know I can not hold you back, yet my heart fails to accept it... I know I can never be with you, yet I long for your company... I know I can never talk to you, yet I memories all that I want to tell you... I know I can never be a part of your small happiness, Yet I still pray for you to be happy... I keep calling you day and night, Yet you don't answer me... I know I can not live without you, Yet there is no other option you have left for me...